Another marker

One year ago yesterday Nick called me at work, crying.  We had the diagnosis of cancer.  I remember I hugged my friend Bill and cried. Even though Nick and I knew in our hearts already what it was, hearing the words was shocking. I raced home from work. Nick greeted me at the door with his bag packed and we went straight to OHSU. One of many visits over the next few months.  He had surgery the following day and spent 3 days in the hospital, mostly for pain management.  The next night after being home, he had to go to the ER for swollen feet and legs.  He would be plagued with that for 6 months, ever worsening.
I sat with him in the emergency room and he was in severe pain and it was barely controllable.  I was praying for God to help us both.  I didn't feel I would have the strength to watch him suffer and to not be able to help him.  I didn't know if I had the courage to be strong for him.  I prayed-Dear God please help me, I can't do this alone. 
Just when I thought I couldn't take anymore, in walked our dear, best friend Thomas.  Bigger than life into the emergency room and he sat with us.  I felt that Thomas was an answer to my prayer from God.  We had many angels over the next 6 months, come into our lives and give us strength and encouragement and kept our spirits lifted. I'm so grateful and can never repay that debt.

I miss most about Nick his calm strength and how he made it seem everything was nothing and all would be well. 

How our lives have changed in one very long, short year.

May God bless you with many years of love in your life- it's the only thing that matters.